I’ve spent the last two weeks living in my head quite a bit, working on my list of 100 things that make me happy. I also spent some time traveling down South, reconnecting with wonderful friends, and getting to know my new nephew. As I’ve worked on my list of 100 things, I decided to write down only those items, occasions, or happenings that truly make me happy as opposed to simply listing things that don’t make me unhappy. A few of the entries concern individuals who are no longer in my life. I came to the realization that I’ve pushed away a lot of people who truly made me happy (for a myriad of reasons) or whose company, both online and/or in real life, I’ve truly enjoyed while spending a lot of energy and time on people whom, ultimately, I’m not particularly fond of or who bring such drama and negativity into my life – either themselves or through the negative people they associate with, that I’m left feeling upset, confused, and occasionally hurt by the stress and the noise. I have long arms – I can stab myself in the back, thank you very much. Luckily, I have some great friends who hang in there with me. I also recognize that, I’ve let go of a lot of activities that define me, as well… me. For the first time in a long time, I feel emotionally and physically ready to make some good decisions to get me back on track.
