lifeinflux

Year in review

Now that life has finally slowed down a bit, I wanted to take a moment and reflect on the last year.  Granted, it's been more than a year since I started writing here on lifeinflux (July 27th to be exact); however, there have been some pressing matters to attend to in the last 10 days.  What have I been busy doing, you ask?   Well, I just moved my family, my business, and pretty much my entire life across the country from Fairfax, VA to the Bay Area of California for example.   And since I own a...

Family Matters

When I was little, I wanted to be a world famous concert pianist with three kids and live in New York in an amazing flat in the Village and throw fabulous parties and have my entire family attend and I just knew I would be loved and adored.  Most importantly, I felt that I would have achieved a measure of success and my father would finally say those words I longed to hear, "I love you and I'm proud of you."  I knew adulthood would be my vindication after a rollercoaster childhood and that I wou...

My life of late… better know as insanity

I'm a chronic volunteer.   I cannot stand a need not getting done.  I'm Type-A, except when I'm not.  And then I'm so Type C you wonder where all that OCD, anal-retentive, I alphabetize my DVDs and color-coordinate my outfits to my underoos, dominant - and occasionally domineering - life is a project and I must manage it, personality goes.   Well, I'm here to give you the answer.  My Type-A personality goes to Madagascar.   Why Madagascar?   I don't know.  I just like saying "Madagascar".   But ...

Who we talking ’bout here?

Ever had one of those weeks where you were so busy, you wonder how you got to Monday?   And were you so busy that when you got to Monday, all the stuff you did was a blur and you can't quite put your finger on exactly what kept you so busy that entire time?   That was my week, last week.   And while I'm doing a lot of tasks that seem simple and mundane to the outside viewer, I find myself calmer and happier than I've been in a long time.    Well, okay, except last Wednesday night, but I'm allowe...

A simple(r) life…

There are so many good things that came from leaving the 9-to-5 grind that I find it hard to define the "best" one.   Surprisingly, cutting back has become less of an obstacle and more of a challenge.   Sure, I freaked out a little when I realized that dropping $25 a week on hair product that just sit on the shelves in my bathroom was no longer going to be the norm.  And by a little, I mean I sat in the back aisle of Ulta, clutching my basket filled with gel and spritz and hair wax in one hand a...

An unstructured structured existence, part one

Now that I am working from home and am only responsible to myself for getting my ever-growing list of to-do's done, I find I am indulging in a rather unstructured existence.   Granted, this is a nice change after four and a half years of structured and stressful living, meeting the demands of The ManTM and wondering what was missing since I was not really enjoying myself or particularly happy. My life was not so different from most people. I woke up at 6 AM every day, hit the snooze button fo...

Security or lack thereof

I woke up this morning around 6 AM from a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad dream. My stress always manifests itself through my dreams.  If I am feeling unsure, insecure, a little nervous or downright stressed  or scared, I'll dream about it.   I've had enough bad dreams in my life to know and understand most things which are represented in my dreams. Relationship indecision always appears as snakes.    Client issues find me swimming in an ocean filled with sharks, alone with no boat in sig...