An unstructured structured existence, part one
// September 17th, 2009 // 3 Comments » // Life
Now that I am working from home and am only responsible to myself for getting my ever-growing list of to-do’s done, I find I am indulging in a rather unstructured existence. Granted, this is a nice change after four and a half years of structured and stressful living, meeting the demands of The ManTM and wondering what was missing since I was not really enjoying myself or particularly happy. My life was not so different from most people. I woke up at 6 AM every day, hit the snooze button for half an hour, talked myself out of bed only to glance at the clock and realize I was officially running late and compensating for that by rushing through a shower, throwing on a suit, attending to Drue and getting us to our respective venues by specific and set times five days a week, forty-nine weeks a year. I’d rush to pick up Drue, rush home, make dinner (occasionally), or eat something quick and processed (usually), stress through Drue’s homework while juggling client demands, get her to bed, and then either work until I fell asleep over my laptop or give up on that day entirely and crash out in front of the television until I fell asleep. I’d wake up around 1 or 2 AM, wash my face, brush my teeth and pass out until the alarm rang at 6 AM the next day. Sounds great, right? Yet day in and day out, this is the life so many people lead simply because they feel it is the right thing – the only thing – and what they are supposed to do. So we settle. I settled. And I settled for the two worst reasons: a paycheck and I had no idea what else I should do.
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